We humans are fragile. But still convinced we are immune towards life cruelty, bruatality and sickness. We are dumb in that way, living our life thinking that nothing, or no one, can beat us. We are immortal. Or at least, so we think. And we walk the crooked path of life acting like we know all there is to now. We take risks and challenge the laws of nature. Humans are stupid. But yet, it is our stupidity combined with our brilliant master homo sapiens mind that makes us so fascinating creatures. We are dumb, but smart. So clever that we do stupid choices to avoid boredom and spice up our life. And dumb enough to think that we will always come out on the right side when we jump of the path that faith has drawn for us, looking for a better way of living. But in the end we are just masses of meat. Flesh and bone smashed together into a human shape. We are fragile. Mortal. And don’t you forget that.
George felt sad and lonely, there he sat on the little mountain hill looking at the city he now had left for ever. He thought about what he had lef and therefore lost. He would never again piss on his neighboor lawn every time he came home from work. He would never again kiss his lovely wife, or tuck in his daughter. He was forver alone. A dreamer, with bigger plans for his life than wastin it in a contaminated city with no real people or feelings left. The city was just a shell containing scattered parts of lost and ruined individuals, getting throug the days smoking to many cigrarettes and selling their soul to to earn money for the big companies, bearly getting by themselves after the months salary was paid. George shed a tear, and while staring into the bewitching flames he noticed a moth flapping quickly and eagerly towards the burning fire. He pointed his finger towards it, trying to snap it in the opposite direction, but the moth ignored his gesture and vanished in the flames. George took a sip of his beer, got up and yelled at the silouette of the city. ‘‘You see you f****ng bastards, thats what happens when you reach towards something you never can get. You strive and strive looking for a bright spot, something better than what you have, and when you find it you become unhappy because you realize how awful you’ve had it, and then are you blinded and burned to death with grief’’. After this George sat down and watched the fire again, before he smoked his pipe and fell asleep, lucky at least he had discovered the thruth about life.
It´s so good to be back in Amsterdam. Its green here (and no good fellows, I am not referring to marihuana) but to the lovely green grass, the blooming flowers and the leaf springing on the threes. Ah, can life be better? I think not. I wish I could take this feeling, capture it and store it in a plastic jar so that I could have a sniff of good life whenever life is not so good. Oh, anyways. Enough blabla for now. Have a lovely day people! And thanks for stopping by.
Spring has finally began to come for real to Amsterdam! Ah, its so amazing! And as I told you earlier I spent my day outside in the garden. After getting some very needed vitamin D I now feel all weird, a mix of happy, meets energetic, meets tired, meets OMG its finally spring! Tanning absolutely feels good! You know, I sort of feels like I am a new person filled up with happiness and energy, but I am actually the lazy sofa pig I usually am. Haha. Oh well, I am gonna go with the flow and follow this good feeling. I am really looking forward to summer life and all the goodtimes coming up! Enough blabber for now. Hope you guys also enjoyed the day!
Ps. This is how happy I get when it’s sunny! Easy to please. Haha.
Running on the path in front of me.
The crocked roots are reaching for my legs,
trying to capture me and keep me in the dark forest.
I keep on running in the rain,
avoiding the roots and their grabbing arms.
Leaves are whispering about me, scaring me with tales about my past,
whispering fearful thoughts about what the future will bring.
I refuse to be captured in the dark.
I keep on running on the narrow road that is laid up for me,
my heart beating hard making drum noise in my ears.
I know that the solution lies in front of me.
Running blind with my arms grasping for answers,
but the answers I seek are drowning the sorrowful surroundings.
Yesterday me and Lucas went to Daan day at ‘Daan & Daan’, a bar close to where Renée and Daan lives. There we had a couple of beers with Renske included before we had a lovely veggie dinner at R and D´s place. Yummy!
The lovely people! Lucas, Renée, Daan and Renske.
And I found myself a new wig! Moaha. Made out of a Norwegian troll souvenir. Lol.
Had a bit to much yummylishious wine also, so today we have been taking it slow and chill. Just started watching this new series today called ‘The Bletchley Circle’. It is thrilling! Worth checking out. Now I am gonna put myself back on the couch and watch more before I have a early night tonight.
Enjoy the rest of your weekend!
Over and out.